|Me Junkie / Shame vs. Pride In Mississippi
||[Apr. 23rd, 2016|02:55 pm]
For reasons that even years of therapy have yet to explain to me, hermit-mode kicks in every so often & I disappear, sort of, for weeks, months, sometimes years. According to many, many internet personality tests, known for their infallible logic & accuracy (/sarcasm), it's all in line with the kind of person I am, defined by so many seemingly random acronyms, like a lot in my life: INFP, OCD, PTSD, etc. Most recently, it was put to me that these are times for me to "re-align" & get "re-centered," which honestly sounds a little hippie-dippie to my cynical self, however truthful it may or may not be.
These quizzes are only as honest as the answers provided; often one's view of one's own self is the farthest from reality, so I take them with a grain of salt. I try to be real, I try to be my own definition of "good", & I try to be true to myself. I hope I am a success at those things.
Political matters are typically not of much interest to me, & more often than not I avoid them, knowing I'll just get pissed off the more I learn about a given scenario. Some topics are impossible to ignore, unfortunately. One of those to me is this new Mississippi Religious Freedom Act or whatever the hell it's called. I have lived in Mississippi all my life. It has always been a source of secret shame for me, as I feel so vastly different from the large majority of people who live in this small pocket of the world. I've never fit in here; my ideas, my values, my choice in clothing even are far out of place & always have been, & it's something I have struggled with always. This area is known as the Bible Belt, because of the insane number of churches per square mile. I do not believe in the bible & do not consider myself to be a Christian, which is neither here nor there, nor does it mean I am not spiritual or that I don't believe in God or any other name that's applicable; that doesn't matter, though. The Separation of Church & State is pretty damn important in my (not-so humble) opinion. Since I was a small child, in primary school learning about the founding of this country, I've understood that a major reason for the establishment of this land as a sovereign nation was just that: Separation of Church & State. Laws & Acts & what-the-f*ck-ever that seem to override that simple concept are rampant in this state, evidently more so than in others. This Religious Freedom nonsense is only the latest in infuriating acts of self-righteousness. But here is a point I cannot ignore, either: Do all these holier-than-thou, so-called Christ-like entities who hold so firmly against LGBT rights not also have every right to refuse service in their businesses to whomever they deem un-servable? I'm kind of stumped there. Yes, I believe this behavior to be unjust, cruel, inhumane, & downright disgusting in every sense. I believe it is simple rationale that one group of people doesn't lord personal opinion over another's. But is it not a violation to take away someone's freedom to NOT be a good person?
The reality that people can be so ..... close-minded, so uncompassionate, so bull-headed (enough hyphenated words yet?) makes me angry, sad & cynical. 'Do what you will' should be the whole of the law until you violate the rights of another. Easy. Who am I to say whom you should love, where you should love, what you should say, how you should say it, et cetera... & for that matter, who are you to tell me any of the same?
I don't know the answers any more than anyone else, of course. I do know that I should be proud that I am a Mississippian, one who does have an open mind & compassion & who is not blindly lead by bullshit someone on an alter tells me. NOT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG WITH RELIGION! It's only wrong when it is used as a reason to be hateful.
ARGH I don't even know what I am trying to say here..... Stumped again.